When I met Mike, I was terrified of letting someone in. The last experience was so horrifying - so heart breaking - that I couldn't stand the thought of going through it again.
The biggest thing that I took from the experience was that I was capable of being alone, and in fact, even took comfort in it. I got to a place where I was comfortable being alone, because I didn't have to compromise myself for anyone else.
Mike pulled me out of that. He made me think, for a minute, that I was someone that could be loved unconditionally and permanently, without having to compromise any of the things that made me who I was.
He made me believe that there were other people who were capable of being trusted, and I honestly believed that it was ok to give pieces of myself to these people - that they would cherish those pieces.
I feel like I was wrong on so many levels, and I'm questioning now whether I will recover this time.
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Sara,
My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family as you go through time in your life.
Sheila
hey Sara!
Not sure what you're dealing with, but I do know we all recover from the things that happen in life. Sometimes we recover in varying degrees. I think the best we can hope for is to recover with grace and dignity, and a belief that no matter what happens, there will always be someone who loves us, and He loves unconditionally and permanently.
I'll stop preaching now, I wanted to share the things that help me.
It hurts to be reminded that people will always fail us, no matter what. But, you have a whole lot of people who are going to love you wherever life's path takes you. You are amazing just the way you are.
I will pray for you to be comforted, by your family and friends, but most importantly by the ONE who will never leave you nor forsake you. That is a promise that is true, no matter how many people turn their backs on us.
I love you!!! :)
You know I'm here if you need anything.
-Kathy
Oh my gosh Sara! What happened? You sounded down when I talked to you the other night but I never heard back from you. Hope everything works out.
Well I love you inside and out, upside down and sideways, purple, blue or green, with or without shoes, clutter and all!
Call me if you need to talk!
Uh... I'm the queen of being failed upon. Look who I'm married to! So it can't be THAT bad ... LOL (and you know what I'm talking about!) I love you shiny star!
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